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In Silence We Speak

 In silence we speak

not with our words but from our souls

Our broken and healed hearts

Our depths of memories

with grieving, gratitude, forgiveness,and more

In silence we hope....

for more silence

Like in the eye of a hurricane surrounded

By turbulent winds of change, of chaos, of loud thunderous sounds

That impose upon our inner silence, our peace of mind

In silence how many will shout, scream, howl, and weep

yell, and vent with anger, frustration, and pain

that has seeped into their souls and possibly also into the collective subconscious

of humanity, and then is hopefully released, healed, and reborn

In silence we hold fast to our spirit, our life, and our sanity

we speak not with words but with love

in those sublime moments of beautiful music, of nature, oceans

and waterfalls, that pour the living waters into our souls. 

In silence we speak to our self, and then we listen

to that still small voice that speaks to us

to our heart and our soul

that is connected to a Divine Spirit

who speaks to us in silence

and in love

Why I Love George Elliot's Middlemarch

 Middlemarch - George Elliot's Writing Style, Humor, Wisdom, and Storytelling

"If we had a keen vision and feeling of all ordinary human life, it would be like hearing the grass grow and the squirrel's heart beat, and we should die of that roar which lies on the other side of silence."
- George Elliot

I love George Elliot's writing in her masterpiece novel Middlemarch as it reflects her timeless wisdom, subtle humor and satire, knowledge of human behavior with complex characters, and insights into historical events of her time and before in England. 

 George Elliot was Mary Ann Evans (22 November 1819 – 22 December 1880.) "Although female authors were published under their names during her lifetime, she wanted to escape the stereotype of women's writing being limited to lighthearted romances or other lighter fare not to be taken very seriously. She also wanted to have her fiction judged separately from her already extensive and widely known work as a translator, editor, and critic." - Wikipedia 


I had heard of Middlemarch, her masterpiece, before and dismissed it initially based on some comments in a Facebook group, as well as the length. Then after joining a book club that focuses on classics and with a deep dive analysis of the great books, I decided to start listening to Middlemarch as an audiobook, my preferred method of experiencing storytelling. 

There is an excellent introduction video on Middlemarch. Benjamin McEvoy is an expert in classics and he has ten tips in this video on how to enjoy this book, considered one of the best novels written in English. 


The prelude to Middlemarch is profound. It captured my attention as it refers to a Spanish mystic Saint Theresa who is well known, and whose life is relevant to the story as well as here and now. I knew from the prelude that I would enjoy this book.


Her writing is dense with the wisdom of human nature, humor, irony, history, and sublime storytelling. It is not only an enjoyable experience of the story, but a confirmation of her ability to engage me between the lines and have a deep effect on my soul. The audiobook of the famous classic Middlemarch is narrated masterfully by Juliet Stevenson.


  The prelude is quoted here in full:


"Who that cares much to know the history of man, and how the mysterious mixture behaves under the varying experiments of Time, has not dwelt, at least briefly, on the life of Saint Theresa, has not smiled with some gentleness at the thought of the little girl walking forth one morning hand-in-hand with her still smaller brother, to go and seek martyrdom in the country of the Moors? Out they toddled from rugged Avila, wide-eyed and helpless-looking as two fawns, but with human hearts, already beating to a national idea; until domestic reality met them in the shape of uncles, and turned them back from their great resolve. That child pilgrimage was a fit beginning. Theresa's passionate, ideal nature demanded an epic life: what were many-volumed romances of chivalry and the social conquests of a brilliant girl to her? Her flame quickly burned up that light fuel; and, fed from within, soared after some illimitable satisfaction, some object which would never justify weariness, which would reconcile self-despair with the rapturous consciousness of life beyond self. She found her epos in the reform of a religious order.  


That Spanish woman who lived three hundred years ago was certainly not the last of her kind. Many Theresas have been born who found for themselves no epic life wherein there was a constant unfolding of far-resonant action; perhaps only a life of mistakes, the offspring of a certain spiritual grandeur ill-matched with the meanness of opportunity; perhaps a tragic failure which found no sacred poet and sank unwept into oblivion. With dim lights and tangled circumstances, they tried to shape their thought and deed in noble agreement; but after all, to common eyes, their struggles seemed mere inconsistency and formlessness; for these later-born Theresas were helped by no coherent social faith and order which could perform the function of knowledge for the ardently willing soul. Their ardor alternated between a vague ideal and the common yearning of womanhood; so that the one was disapproved as extravagance, and the other condemned as a lapse. 


Some have felt that these blundering lives are due to the inconvenient indefiniteness with which the Supreme Power has fashioned the natures of women: if there were one level of feminine incompetence as strict aTs the ability to count three and no more, a social lot of women might be treated with scientific certitude. Meanwhile, the indefiniteness remains, and the limits of variation are much wider than anyone would imagine from the sameness of women's coiffure and the favorite love stories in prose and verse. Here and there a cygnet is reared uneasily among the ducklings in the brown pond and never finds the living stream in fellowship with its oary-footed kind. Here and there is born a Saint Theresa, foundress of nothing, whose loving heartbeats and sobs after an unattained goodness tremble off and are dispersed among hindrances, instead of centering in some long-recognizable deed."


At the time of this writing, I have completed 12 hours of this 35-hour, 38 minute audiobook. I have been so inspired by both the story and the narration by Juliet Stevenson that I needed to post this on this blog, and briefly describe why I love George Elliot for her gift of writing and inspiration for life, with all of its flaws. 


If you want to be inspired by great art in the form of this novel, and as recommended as an audiobook to experience the storytelling with Juliet Stevenson, then try a free trial with Audible and get the book as a free download. If you cancel you can keep the book. Link below. Enjoy.

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Shakespeare in Love Revisited

Remember the Movie? 1998 - Time Flies -

Shakespeare in Love - Is it Time to Revisit It? 
You might remember (24 years ago) the endearing movie  that included Gwyneth Paltrow, Joseph Fiennes, Geoffrey Rush, Colin Firth and Judi Dench. The fictional story is a comedy about Shakespeare falling in love with Viola de Lesseps (Gwyneth Paltrow) while he was writing the play Romeo and Juliet. There are many references to actual quotes from the play, historical events, and the movie has an authenticity of the times. The humor is exceptional. It won seven Oscars including best picture, best actress, best supporting actress, and best screenplay. It's a must see if you like good movies and have not seen it yet.

 The trailer on YouTube will bring it back to memory, or inspire you to watch it for the first time or maybe to view it again. The video is a deeper dive into another story about Shakepeare especially for those like myself, who have not been able to get into the actual plays (until this year), and like a good story. 


Hamnet - a Very Popular Modern Book About Shakepeare's Life

 from Amazon

"IONAL BOOK CRITICS CIRCLE AWARD WINNER • NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLER • “Of all the stories that argue and speculate about Shakespeare’s life ... here is a novel ... so gorgeously written that it transports you." —The Boston Globe

England, 1580: The Black Death creeps across the land, an ever-present threat, infecting the healthy, the sick, the old and the young alike. The end of days is near, but life always goes on.

A young Latin tutor—penniless and bullied by a violent father—falls in love with an extraordinary, eccentric young woman. Agnes is a wild creature who walks her family’s land with a falcon on her glove and is known throughout the countryside for her unusual gifts as a healer, understanding plants and potions better than she does people. Once she settles with her husband on Henley Street in Stratford-upon-Avon, she becomes a fiercely protective mother and a steadfast, centrifugal force in the life of her young husband, whose career on the London stage is just taking off when his beloved young son succumbs to sudden fever." 

I recommend experiencing this story as an audiobook, and it can be downloaded free if you subscribe to Audible's free trial then cancel. The prose is beautifully written as describe in a review also on Amazon: "The reader of this novel will be challenged by the urge to press ahead and discover how the story unfolds, but resisting all the while to savor the stunningly gorgeous writing. In any time, but particularly during this time of the pandemic, grief and the yearning for some shred of consolation are treated with such graceful and sensitive measure. An unforgettable literary gift."

Blessings to the Beautiful Souls

 Blessings to the beautiful souls

Who are living today in every country, every family

Who have passed on, in recent years, in human history

Blessings to all other living things, animals and forests

Crops, whales, flowers, plants for food

A young woman just died from an overdose of heroin. She had been addicted for some years, and she is the daughter of my sister's husband's sister. Her name is Casey. Bless her beautiful soul.

So many families are grieving over so many things and for the past two years more intensively. There is a lot of soul searching going on. Many people are more willing to be silent about it than talk about it. Yet we all can feel it, the collective vibe.

Blessings to all the beautiful souls of every person in every culture, young and older.